My Photo Session w/Saddi Khali

It was AMAZING......

I wasn't has nervous....but I was nervous....hell who wouldn't be naked in front a strange man.....I just had one phone conversation with.....and just gave a hug to.

But I have in my own head said that I am going to do shit I've always wanted to do......I have always loved this photo of Marilyn Monroe.....

And so I've always been opened to the experience of a nude photo session.  I wanted art not porno....and that is what I got....it turned into a 2-3 hour photo/therapy session.  Things that I didn't understand by him being a stranger and no real connection with me or my life.....he was able to in away answer a question that I have been posing to myself and others for 6 yrs...(that is a long fucking time to thinking about this shit but I digress.  

The question was....Why couldn't the ex forgive my mother for how she acted while I was in a coma when there was no history of animosity between them.  And this was an extreme circumstance? He knows my mom has men issues....but she apologized.  

and the simple answer is 

Just because I've accepted someone's crazy, I shouldn't expect others to accept the crazy.

So there you have it.  

Fuck it...it was for the best.....

After talking to others over the years and dealing with other males who have worshiped, loved, rubbed and squeezed (even if it was temporary) this 200 plus pound woman's body, every curve, roll, stretch mark and cellulite dimple was appreciated. 

Yet at 140- 150 pounds the following things happened:

Asked

1. Don't you think your butt is too big?
2. Have you ever thought about getting breast implants?
3. Why don't you wear contacts?

or these things happened

1. Reaching for one too many nachos a tap on my arm....no one sees it but I feel it (signal that you're eating too much)
2. Excuse for cheating....your gaining weight. 
3. Every man cheats just accept (and I did)

So as I told the photographer I should have left when he cheated the 1st time. I should have put on my big girl draws and dealt with being a lone in a big city.....so I didn't move when God wanted me to move.....so he moved me in a very drastic way....basically telling me...."Takia move when I say move.....cause if I move you.....I'm really going to move you."

Because I have over 200 pictures.....I will periodically post some of my favorites and not so fave ones....

This is one of my faves.....I probably won't post the nude one cause this is the internet and well people are assholes.

Well until next time people.  I'll update on my radiation appointments.