The FACEBOOK message.....
After I talked to The Messenger and thanked her profusely, all I could say as I looked for clothes to throw on was Fuck, Fuck, Fuck Fuck....(well you get the point).
I posted a message on one of my besties FB page....to call me it's an emergency....
She calls me as I am walking to the car....I feel myself starting to get choked up...but #thugsdontcry so my eyes were starting to sweat...
I tell her what's going on and I'm on my way to the hospital....she tells me to go get my mom first...my mother will be pissed if I don't do that....she was right of course. My first instinct is to get the bad news and then present it in a pleasant manner to my mom and sister....I'm the level headed one....most of the time. So I hop on 695 and go get my mom....
After my mom gets dressed we're driving to the hospital and my mom begins to tell me about a very depressing and gut wrenching feeling she got around 2 or 3 the day before....turns out my uncle was hit by that bitch around the same time.....(I believe in ghosts and other such things...) Weird right...but hey things like that happen.....
We get to the hospital....and Geezus my uncle looks awful....tubes coming out everywhere. Stitches on his face, lips swollen and he is not moving. The nurse tells us he is not breathing on his own.
In my heart I knew my uncle was not going to make....but I'm not God so I prayfully could be wrong....
We correct some misinformation that was given to the hospital and my mom calls my cousin (my uncle's son) and tells him what has happened. He leaves Va. immediately and drives to Maryland.
I take my mother home....I go back to my place and go to sleep. I call out of work cause I am EXHAUSTED!!!!
Go over my sister's house to pick her up to take her to the hospital....
PART2 of the this GOD AWFUL DAY!
While sitting in the car with my sister the Nurse Practitioner who works w/my Oncologist calls to give me my test results from my Spinal tap* did a couple of weeks ago....my cancer cells have spread into my spinal fluid so I will need to start chemo and radiation ASAP.....
Just fucking great....my uncle is dying in the got damn hospital and my supposedly non-spreading cancer has indeed fucking spread to my damn spinal fluid....just fucking awesome (dripping with an extreme amount of sarcasm)
So now you see why December 17, 2014 is one of the most GOD AWFUL day in my life.
*I'm diabetic I started experiencing severe shooting pain in my left leg I thought it was related to my diabetes (neropathy) so I went to my PCP. She uses some sorta instrument to see if my feet are numb. They aren't she pushes on my back and there is pain...she tells me I may need an MRI and go see my oncologist.....
I go to the oncologist same exam sort of....a MRI is scheduled....
I get the MRI they see fluid around my Spine.
I get a Spinal Tap.
Well this was my first post....I can't gauge right now if my posts will be this long or if they will be short, sweet and to the point. They'll be what they will be....
Hope you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it.....it was kind of cathartic.
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