Well I have some Catching up to do....Part 1 or 3

Well damn,  I did not realize I had not posted since January.  Good Lawd.....part of the reason was that a blogger I follow gave the advice to all bloggers that we copyright our words.  Which is great but after research this required a lawyer.  Ummmmm I have a family attorney but I don't have funds for that so...PAUSE!!! on the blog.


But well I have a lot of pent of shit in my mind and I need to fuckin vent....so here I am....my life is not that interesting in my opinion to be stolen....I know everyone says I'm a superwoman, I'm strong yada yada yada.....I know everyone means well and I get what they are saying but honestly I feel like a fucking loser.

My life is no where, where I thought it would be.....I moved out of my mother's house at 24.  I met a man I adored and loved w/all my heart and 25 we moved in together at 27. While he was not Prince Charming and in retrospect he was a selfish lover and overall a selfish human being I loved him and I would have made it muthafuckin worked.....DO YOU HEAR ME!!! WORK!!! but it did not work out......I know I have said and I have come to the realization while I don't subscribe to any religion I believe that there is a higher power....and I did not move when I was presented the opportunity to leave.  I stayed and forgave his cheating, his slightly under handed way of putting me down (don't you think you should get breast implants, why do you wear glasses you should get contacts....a slight tap on my arm no on else at dinner saw it but I felt it...cause I went for 1 to many nacho chips). So yeah he was not the man for me.....but I was blissfully ignorant of the fact.   But anywho....I should have left when God told me and gave the opportunity....so since I didn't leave....he pushed my ass right the hell out the door.

IDK if I went over my initial diagnosis (DX) of cancer but here's a brief summary....

1. Pains in my legs and back, extremely fatigued in the beginning of August of 2008.
2. Mid to late August of 2008 went to my Primary care Physicians (PCP) 3 times in regards to the above issue (Family motto when in doubt go get it checked out) 
3. My boyfriend and his mom were suppose to go to Boston but I was too tired he went (w/my blessing)
4. My mom and sis found me on the floor unconscious (I lived in another city 2hrs away from mom) 
5. In a coma for a week while in a coma my mom would not let my boyfriend in to see me...words were exchanged (to this day no one will tell me what was said but I'm betting some pretty mean and unkind words) 
6. I wake up week 2.
7. My boyfriend is allowed in the room he sleeps in the room w/me for the entire week giving my mom a break......
8. I was moved out of my apartment during the hospital stay and moved back to my home town....OH YEAH 
9.  
10. My boyfriend and I maintain our relationship I come up every weekend.  
11. We break up March of 2009 only reason I'm giving is he cannot forgive my mother because of how she treated him while I was in the hospital..... 
12. The End of an era!

Well this seems like a good place to end....this post I'll post the rest of this Ketchup (get it get catch up hahaha I'm corny) LOL.......

Seriously I'll post again in a couple of days and catch up from 2009-2015 and an update on the now defunct work crush...... 

Till next time
Thanks for reading.....